yeah im extremely bored...sitting in childers class and since i have all my work done, im on my blog. woot i suppose, correct? anyways...

im going to james house after school today...yay! but, sadly, its for help with math......oh well....

oh my god...theres a guy dancing around like a fairy in the library...that just made me day...

Well, i gotta get goin...hope to write again soon...

~Tinkerbell~

I LOVE JAMES!!!

im sooooo sorry i havent written here in FOREVER...i actually have a life and dont get to be online as much as i used to...lol. i wish that were true...im truly just damn lazy and havent felt like blogging. and im too tired to do much tonight...teehee...anywho im out lata all!!

*kisses*

~TiNkErBeLL~

I LOVE JAMES!!!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!!!! *KISSES AND LOVE*

Well, i gtg. im going on  a date with james-y-poo....teehee

bye

Tinkerbell

but, its only thursday....blah. this royally stinks. humph.

lalalalalalalalalalalala... im so bored. nothing to do here, although mom offered for me to go to bible study with her. i think ill pass.

i wanna go shopping...having a shopping craving...and i want a warm brownie...mmmm....CHOCOLATE.... anywho....spirit week, homecoming, and valentines day and club day are all next week!!!! yay!!! im so excited. that means we'll be doing nothing at school all week and i get cute gifts from James and get to give him his gag gifts....teehee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i get o wear my sexyful homecoming dress...WOOTNESS.

gtg ttyl

*tinkerbell*

*sigh* it is yet again MONDAY. i absolutely hate MONDAY . oh well.

it has been a wonderful afternoon though, i must say. I've spent it with James, just being absolutely stupid and just having fun fun fun.  i Lve that boy!!!!!!!!!! hes cute and sweet and caring and funny and stupid and an idiot...but i still love him.

YES WORLD, I'M IN LVE WITH AN IDIOT!!!!!!!! MUHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

okay.....ive got to go. ill ttyl peeps.

*Tinkerbell*  

yucky yucky day. i stayed home sick...so did me mom. o well. hopefully tomorrow will be better. i guess thats about it....im going to bed. lata peeps.

Tinkerbell...

humph. its been quite a boring day...which sucks because its a snow day and snow days are always fun. but oh well...i suppose ive got a case of the snow day blues...haha

anywho yeah i guess thats about it for tonight...me head hurts. i believe im gonna take a huge sleeping pill and go to bed. heh. later all.

*kisses*

*Tinkerbell*

ugh. i have yet another flare up of my sinuses this wonderful weekend. missed school friday, but im here, being miserable.

this sucks so bad.

mondays suck so bad.

ughhhh.....i need sleep...and medication...

*Tink*

wow it realllly doesnt seem like Christmas to me this yera...james agrees. but he has an excuse...its his first christmas in his new house so its expected. but as for me...i have no excuse. maybe its because its rather mild outside...no sign of that christmasy weather. no snow...looks like its gonna be a green and brown christmas...oh well. well, good news. im at my dads and we exchanged gifts...he got together with my mom and they bought me a dell laptop and printer...so WOOT FOR ME!!! yeah sry i had to get that outta me system...anywho back to this it doesnt feel like christmas deal. i dont know whats wrong with me. it just..well i just havent been bitten by the christmas bug this year. i dont know...maybe thats a good thing..? no, its not. nevermind. it sucks major balls. even gingerbread cookies and milk cant get me in the mood...and that always works. maybe its the fact that after this year, mom will be remarried and ill be living with a STEPSISTER. i dont think i like that idea too much. and maybe its because i only have two more christmas's truly at home...ill be off to college. man its weird. but, i guess no matter much i ABSOLUTELY HATE change...i have to come to accept it. well, i better go...we're watching ELF. I'll write later on i suppose...

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a goodnight!!!

<3 and mistletoe kisses...

*Tinkerbell* 

hey all...like my new pic? its all gothic/emo-ish...even though im not gothic or emo. i just felt like taking that kinda pic so i got all gothic-ed up in a hott little mini skirt, leather knee boots, and gothic makeup...haha. i think its hot. boys, and girls, plz tell me wut u think so i know whether or not to keep it... 

anywho theres a couple of emo-ish pics of my bestest fwend, Autumn in my photos. she wants to know how her pics r too...so please respond...shes the brunette, I (tinkerbell) am the blonde. tell on ue comment ur "rating" of each of our pics, plz. thankies...

*Tinkerbell* and ~Autumn~

have you ever wished you hadnt been so casual and unappreciative of someone you love so dearly? ever had someone that no matter what wrong you'd done or how much you neglected them they still loved you enough to cuddle up next to you and wipe, or, lick, the tears off of your face? have you ever FORGOTTEN TO SAY "I LOVE YOU" that one last time...and it turned out to be the last chance you'd ever have?

I DID.

I'm sorry, dukie. i love you. know that.

this entry is dedicated to one of the best friends i've ever known.

Duke "Fat Boy" Harris

Born: November 2001

Died: December 4th, 2005

"Think of me, think of me fondly when we've said GOODBYE...

Remember me, once in awhile, please PROMISE ME YOU'LL TRY...

When you find, that once again you long, to take your heart back and be free,

If you ever find a MOMENT...

SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME. "

-Phantom of the Opera

Duke Harris was my Jack Russell Terrier who was suddenly taken from us tonight by a speeding teenager...who never slowed down, never looked back.

Please, pray for me. he was my baby

~Tinkerbell~ 

all i asked for was a simple five minute phone call. five minutes, five seconds to say "goodnight, sweetie" and "i love you" . even one of the two would have been great. and yes, i can and will live without either one...it shouldnt be a big deal...but its starting to become a big deal. james never ever calls anymore...i have to call him. and when i ask him to call and he says he'll try, or even on the rare occasion he promises to call, he rarely does. i understand that we both have alot of homework and other stuff and yes i understand james is living in a house with two brothers, a sister, and his parents. and i understand he can't get to the phone as much as meself, who has no siblings. but still...you'd think he'd make an effort, ya know? im not mad, just a little...hurt, actually. my eyes are even tearing up a little...and i know they shouldnt be. i love him with all my heart, and nothing can ever change that. and i plan to talk with him about my feelings. tomorrow. but as for tonight, i'll just head to bed and maybe cry a little, then drift into a dream-filled slumber where a five minute phone call is never, ever forgotten. i can hear him now tomorrow..."sorry hun. i was usy and it was late and you know it..."

ALL I EVER ASKED FOR WAS A SIMPLE FIVE MINUTE CALL...

*Tink*

sorry that i havent written...been extremely busy.................

anywho...im stuck here at the school for a stupid academic team meet...rawr. mom i hate it when you make me do this...just know that...lol i love ya anyway.

well....the only good part of this whole ordeal is that James stayed after with me. yay 4 me...that means at least there will be the car ride home...woot...haha

not too incredibly much going on...since band is over and all. i pretty much have no life after marching season. but, its to be expected from a band chickaroo like meself.

i have been writing quite a bit though, but nothing too incredibly important or earth shattering. just a few thoughts and poems here and there. i must say ive been working on my music alot...piano and vocals i mean. went to a GSA (governers school of the arts) vocal workshop...lets just say it was enlightening while still..how do you say...boring?

i was the only person out of three who knew how to sight read and was forced to listen to the basics of the "art" for over an hour. talk about wanting to throw meself out the fucking window...

well...thats it for now...ill write later. love ya

 *Tink*

*Sigh*...im in the process of writing a short story for Honors English. I love writing and ive had this story idea in my head for awhile. im excited to finally write it and "get to know" my characters. I'm not insane, its a writer thing. Im gonna post a snippet of my story....please post and tell me ur honest opinions...

Rain. Ah, those precious tears from the eyes of angels. Hundreds, thousands of tiny baptismals, seeping through the flesh and into the soul…cleansing it of iniquity. Droplets that whisper secrets known only to the guardians of the pearly gates. “If you pray long and hard, Aislinn, the angels will tell you their secrets…” Aislinn smiled, hearing the sweet, warm, loving tone of her mother’s voice as if she were right beside her. A voice cut so short by that horrible, rainy night. A voice disfigured by unheeded screams for mercy, for redemption…a voice cut short by the swift swing of a two-edged sword. The smile upon Aislinn’s face faded. She shivered, the rain now seeming to burn rather than bless the flesh. She pulled the folds and hood of her well-worn travelers cloak about her and continued toward the lights of the inn in the distance; toward the promise of warmth, rest, and wine.

There ya go. thats it for now...ttyl  

Love, *Tink*